Natural product...junkie

Ok, so I did some cleaning out of my products and decided I didnt really have a whole lot.  Im dont think Im a product junkie.  Now I might be a slight hoarder of natural oils...but I just like to be prepared.  The few commercial products I have I dont really use often but Im reluctant to let them go.  I might need them in a pinch or something.  LOL

My cowashes.  I rotate these...there are probably 3 other bottles in the shower.  Almost everything has some sort of oil added to it.

 These are my spritz's of various concoctions.  There is glycerin, vitamin E in every one of them..some have conditioner in.  The application bottle is my castor oil/tea tree mix.

 My main essential oils

 The styling products...there arent that many.  I am slowly working through the Carol's daughter stuff and the eco gels.  Now that Im using my own flax seed gel I probably dont need them but....you never know,

I really dont shampoo often...maybe once a month depending on how heavy I get with stuff.  Again everything has an oil or 3 added into it.  The soaps are new.  Cant wait to see how they work,

My beloved oils...I just want to add some avocado oil...I need some  more coconut oil too....hmm

What I learned this week

I have survived the first week since doing the big chop. I made it without reverting back to my instaweave. I went to lunch with old coworkers and went face to face with my daddy and other family members. Y'all just don't know how hard that was. I haven't made peace with the way I look but I am trying to accept it.

I am so excited, I have learned so much. This whole natural hair thing is like uncovering ancient ruins or something. The best thing is the whole notion of co-washing or only washing my hair with conditioner. I've co-washed 3x this week mostly because I have putting so much stuff in my hair but I want to do it every couple of days or so irregardless. I cant believe the difference it makes. I have washed and conditioned with Keracare shampoo and Humecto conditioner and it left my hair brittle and dry. The co-washes leave my hair so soft and manageable its just crazy. Who knew???

The 2nd best thing is this conditioner/glycerin/water spritz. Man oh man. Now every cell in my brain is screaming at me that putting water on nappy hair is a one way ticket to hell but my hair was never this soft or moisturized when i had a relaxer. The best part is it's all natural and I MADE IT ALL BY MYSELF!!!!!

I got the Curls Whipped Cream and Souffle I have used the WC once and man did it curl my hair....relaxed ends and all. I think it made everything curl in tight. I'm not sure if it what they call shrinkage but my TWA shrunk. (For Lisa:TWA is short for teeny weenie afro). It also left my hair alittle bit harder than just the spritz but it is still soft. I will post some before and after pictures.

The bad thing I learned....if you can call it bad is Tea Tree oil is some STRONG stuff!!! I felt like Nutty Professor so I decided to add some Tea Tree and Jojoba oils to my glycerin spritz. The more the merrier right?? Yeah well....Tea Tree Oil is, for those like me who aren't exactly sure what Tea Tree oil can be used for:

Tea Tree Oil Healing Powers
Tea tree oil has been proven to be a powerful yet natural antiviral, antibacterial, antifungal medicine (essential oil).

It is being used as a very effective first aid remedy and against countless skin ailments, infections, cuts, scrapes, burns, insect bites and skin spots etc.

Tea tree oil is effective against nail fungus, ringworm, athlete's foot, dandruff, acne, blackheads and many types of infestations including lice, mites, scabies and mosquitoes etc... (For humans and animals alike)

Tea tree oil is not just soothing and disinfecting, it is capable of penetrating into the lower skin layers with its anti-inflammatory, disinfectant, analgesic (pain-killing) and cicatrizant (wound-healing) qualities.

It has a diaphoretic effect - It promotes sweating - which enhances the body's own natural preventative response when threatened by infection.

Tea tree oil exhibits expectorant and balsamic characteristics, which are especially beneficial in the case of throat or chest infections, having a generally soothing and clearing (mucus-expelling) effect on the entire respiratory tract. It is also effective against head colds.

All that means if you put more than just a few drops....your head will be on fire all night long!!!
LOLOL....I know...that's what my crazy azz gets. LOL

Ok so I've made a new spritz with conditioner, glycerin, jojoba, and vitamin E. I'm gonna use that this week. I'm also gonna use it on the girls hair and see how that works. I'm also gonna keep trying the Curls stuff to see how I like it as well.

BUT I visited the site Coup de coeur who says she loves Karen's Products and man that stuff looks great there are alot of fragrances including Sultry Sandalwood and Egyptian Musk!!! I'm gonna have to order their sampler just to see. I'm not usually a product junkie but I am afraid I am becoming one VERRRRY fast.

Sybill is Back

I have felt every emotion today. I look at myself in the mirror and see me and/or a stranger. I still dont know if I like what I see but understand that too is part of the journey. The thot of seeing my daddy in person is not working for me. Plus I have a Partylight candle party on Saturday and really dont know if I can handle the attention. (a shock to my Leo sensibilities). I promised I would wear my hair out for a week before I would think about covering it. Although I have been watching videos on youtube on how to wrap your head. Though what in the world would I look like like that???

Ive only cried once and have managed to go out in public twice. Ms Grace put stuff in my hair to make it curl yesterday and said all i had to do was wet it and it would curl right back. WRONG. I ordered the milkshake stuff from Curls last night. I hope it works for me like the ladies on Youtube.

I can't believe how scared I am to fool with my hair. It's insane!...Plus I already know it's not my strong suit but it's not like I can mess up much now is it?...LOL I bought suave coconut conditioner, shea butter, olive oil, glycerine and jojoba oil and cant see past my double chin, gray hairs and big azz cheeks AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH MY HEAD!!!!! I want to make my own natural product so I will mix that tomorrow and try and set a regimine.

I've got damn near 40 years of hair ignorance to overcome....and I was dumb as a bucket of rocks to start with. But to even know what natural hair is supposed to feel like when you have been conditioned to think it is so horrible. I have to say I like the way it feels. I think I may too much stuff in it now.


DH says its great but he always says that. His first words were "neat" and this is a good thing we want your hair healthy. While it is great he is so supportive of everything I do I am a bit fragile and really needed hear was 'You're beautiful' or some malarky like that. LOL He keeps looking at me strange but then I guess out of allll the weaves and pieces I've had through the years this is the most drastic. Plus my timing isnt the best. Jev goes for Freshman orientation tomorrow and leaves for the summer program at NKU on the 7th. We've had to borrow alittle money from my daddy for that. I havent asked my daddy for jack since I got married. That was rough. My baby leaving the nest is stressing us out. Maybe my hair is the only thing I have the slightest bit of control of.

From this day forward

I have wanted to go natural and loc for several years now but have never had the guts. My husband of 8 years, who is white, doesn't understand the problem. He says I'm acting like I'm getting a boob job. Its just hair. I agree....to a point. I want to do it. I love the look. I am tired of the chemicals. I don't want my hair to define me but I do want it to say that I am ok with me...naturally. I am tired of being afraid of my hair. Yet I feel like I am on top of the cliff about to bungee jump for the first time.

The transition of not having any hair terrified me. Im a big girl.. bald and double chin ..my mother would roll over in her grave! LOL Then I got micros for about a year and ended up with an "Afro" that hit the top of the door when I walked through. Sadly I didn't know how to handle it and felt like I couldn't go to my corporate job looking like a foxy brown wannabe so I wore a hairpiece for about a week and got it relaxed. Oh I how i regret that now.

Currently I am a stay at home mom with a son starting college and fostering 2 little girls (1 &3). Its been almost 3 months since I last used the creamy crack. I do the 3yr olds natural hair and see how manageable and beautiful it is and it is all i want her to know. I know in my heart its time for me. The stars are almost in line. The back of my head is full of naps while the front is straight. I cant find a soul to even braid my hair now. LOL!! So I will try to manage what I have until it works. I know I wont relax again. I refuse to spend $200+ to get micros or twist. I will loc or I will tough it out.

A woman on http://www.mykinkycreed.com/ inspired me to just try to twist my hair to see what happens. I did it!! and its been an hour and its still holding together. I so suck at hair so this is a major accomplishment for me! Now I wouldn't be caught dead in public but its a start. I look a hot mess or my son says like Coolio but I'm excited. I washed it with Carol's Daughter Rosemary Sea Moss shampoo and left in VO5 Tea Tree conditioner then used Jamaican Mango & Lime locking creme wax to twist. I know I should of made them smaller now. I have no clue what to do with the back. There are so many different lengths and textures back there. Not to mention I cant reach it and my hands are too big for that length.


Up until a couple of years ago I always had thick full shoulder length hair. Then fertility drugs made my diabetes go haywire and center back of my hair fell out. When I got the micros put in they filled in very nicely but as soon as I put the creamy crack on it has been going to hell in a handbasket. Anyways. There is a big chunk of hair on the left that is completely natural and so soft. I am just amazed. I almost wish it was all that way so I could figure out what to do. Ive been obsessed with youtube videos of women who did the BC. I am feeling uncomfortable in my own hair these days and want to just do it. How bold would that be??? I don't know if I can be that kind of woman but damn if I don't want to be one.

Sweet dreams